Tuesday, December 30, 2008

2009 - A Bright Shining New Year

OK I am a gal who makes resolutions. I know many people groan and smack their forehead and say really? But yes really. There is something forgiving about the past year's mistakes and hugely inspiring and positive about a new year. What I didn't accomplish is no longer thought of. My mind whirls with anticipation and excitement as I plan big things to accomplish in the new year.

And what about those things that we don't accomplish? Perhaps we bought a gym membership for $500 and only went twice. BLECH. Or perhaps we want to lose 10 pounds and gained 2 or we stopped organizing the house when we looked in our kiddos bedrooms.

It's ok. Stop - regroup - look up - redesign those resolutions and start again. Making a resolution doesn't mean you won't have grace if you screw. Isn't being a Christian all about grace and mercy? But it truly is a beacon of hope for many people. Even if you choose not to make a resolution - start fresh and be optimistic about 2009. Even if life is full of massive problems (I have them too) don't focus on the problems - focus on the solutions. Dream about something better.

Dream and then create a plan then do it. If you mess up along the way - figure out where your mistakes started - recreate then do it again.

Seriously - life is too short to live a mediocre life. Think about Jeremiah 29:11 - For I know the plans I have for you says the Lord. Plans to prosper you and not harm you, plans to give you a hope and a future. Have you ever wondered what that hope and future is? I do - almost everyday. So join me - find out who you are. Be who God wants you to be. Be inspired. Be positive. Live a life of no regrets.

Big Week!!!

First of all we had a great but busy Christmas. Nannie came home on Christmas Eve, then we had Christmas Eve with my family, Christmas morning was just us, then we went to Snyder for lunch with Brian's dad and step brother's family, then home the next day - Korie came in and we drove to Brownwood to see Brian's mom and sister. We came back Sat night. It was hectic but fun but I am SO looking forward to a laid back going no where Christmas next year. :) We'll see if I win that! LOL.

I have a big week. Salem is still out of school and they are loving playing with their toys. I hope to post some Christmas pics soon! But I have a lot to get done
  • I went on this huge cleaning organizing spree yesterday and I cleaned out my desk and threw away or recycled a ton. Next is my bedroom.
  • I have to pack for my surgery in Mexico
  • Tomorrow we're going to a local hotel for swimming and NYE with the girls and will have a bday dinner with my sister at a Japanese steak house
  • Get the girl's schedule's and needs all lined out for next week while I am gone. LaRae and a wonderful lady from church are going to be a great help.
  • There are some MOPS things to work out for the meeting on the 12th.
  • Get Nannie's needs all lined out for next week while I am gone. Thankfully home health is going to come everyday and help mom get her out of bed and Brian will help her get in bed.
  • Go to GNC and the health food store to look at some protein supplement stuff. I should have done that already.
  • Do billing! Leave instructions for Brian on deposits while I am gone.
  • Friday Brian and I are scheduled to get our chromosome testing done. I am nervous about this but it needs to be done.
  • Relax? LOL. Yeah right. I can relax on the plane.
So I do have a lot to do and a short time to do it but I am SO very excited about my surgery. Please say a prayer!!!

Tuesday, December 23, 2008

Misc Update

It's just Tuesday and I feel it should be Saturday already! :lol It's just crazy. I am SO tired but I can't sleep so I thought I'd update.

Brian is still working long hours - the downside to having such a huge Christmas business is that we have a huge maintenance business when the lights get knocked down in the high winds Abilene has been having lately. ARG. So the single mom stuff is getting old. Old I tell ya.

The girls have been fun. Salem is SO melodramatic that is seriously stresses me out but she's loving and kind. Raina is talking more all the time. :) I am SO excited they are doing. We might get Salem out of speech in Spring! WOW. After 4 years no more speech and PT (she left PT in October I think) and we'll just have riding! Thank God!

I love my van! :) I'm such a mom! LOL. My sister got engaged to a wonderful man named Randy. He's a nurse practitioner and an old friend of mine from when I was 18.

Tomorrow for Christmas Eve and I need to get to the grocery store to get food and we're going to Christmas service at Beltway and then having presents/food at my house. Christmas morning is at my house with just us and the girls and then we'll go to Brian's dad's for the rest of the day and see Brian's mom on Saturday.

Can you believe I am less than 2 weeks from surgery? I am SO excited. Please be praying. :) I have lost 2 1/2 pounds and I am praying the surgery goes well enough for me to get off my diabetes meds.

I am having a lot of tingling in my neck and it hurts a lot but that will have to wait until I get home to think about.

So that's it for now I guess. Merry Christmas.

Wednesday, December 17, 2008

New Car...

I got a new used car - errr I mean van! I was originally looking at a brand new Ford Escape but my sense of frugality won out and I started looking at used cars. Then I found a Dark Smoky Gray Impala. LOVED it. 2005, low miles, leather all the bells and whistles. I was about to say yes and just HAD to ask if they any small SUV's or vans with good gas. Of course they did. He had one that gets 18 miles to the gallon (what I would have had in the impala) and with similar low miles. LOL. So I am back in a van - a white Chrysler Town and Country! I am SO fickle! LOL. But I have to drive this car at least 4 years so it's done!

Saturday, December 13, 2008

Nannie was hospitalized tonight

So last Sunday we took Nannie to the hospital and after 6 hours the Dr. was a little snooty and said he didn't see anything in her xray to think she was developing pneumonia (which I and her home health people did think cause of past history) and they sent us home.

That Dr. was WRONG.

All of this week she's been week and tired but seemed better. Today she was VERY off. Very disoriented - wouldn't even talk - I think she had a TIA. We called home health and her lungs sounded worse. So we called the ambulance and took her to the other hospital where they were SO sweet and took such GREAT care of her. She has bacterial pneumonia in her right lung and fluid in her chest. Randy (my sister's boyfriend who is a nurse practitioner) thinks she has more problems with her heart. But we got there right before 6 and we just got her admitted and home. MUCH better. We were at the other hospital almost 2 hours longer and they sent her home.

So we just got home. I am VERY tired. I actually had a date night planned with my sweet hubby whom I haven't seen much of in 6 weeks. :( So we'll go in the morning before church and go from there.

The last 2 years she's been hospitalized 2-4 weeks around this time and it really helped build up her strength with fluids and PT and all. But this year her congestive heart failure seems worse.

So we're just praying. If it's her time to go we just want to be quick and painless. She's 82, on oxygen 24-7 and totally imobile. She misses Papa too. I do too. We all do.

Friday, December 12, 2008

Tiring Week

You know I am almost ready for the holidays to be over. I am just not in the spirit this year. My tree is up but so much other stuff is in boxes on my table. My goal is to do that tomorrow.

Our Christmas light business is usually dead right after December 1st. Not this year so I am STILL a single mom. Brian is out right now installing a new job.

My grandmother was sick and we took her to the hospital on Sunday and besides being their for 6 years they didn't do anything. It's getting harder and harder to keep her at home. We're going to have to think about her going to a nursing home in 2009.

I still have to find a delivery confirmation receipt, mail a package to Korie, file a claim with the post office, do payroll and that's on top of the regular activities and compounded by a busy week next week with Salem's school party and The King's Table at the Mission. GRRRR.

I need a hot bath, a margarita and a valium! LOL.

Tuesday, December 9, 2008

Chromosomal Anaylsis

Remember the whole unknown marker thing on Salem's chromosomal analysis? Harvard wants to see if Brian or I have it as well. If we do we'll test Korie and Raina. They still don't know what it is but it would be good information to have down the road if it's ever identified and related to anything. We did get approved for a grant to cover the testing thank God as it would have easily been a couple of thousand.

Then once that is all done Salem will have the PTN11 test for NS and we'll go to Dallas to Cook's so it will done correctly.

I've not heard from her cardiologist about the endocrinologist referral but for now I am going to sit on that til Spring cause with all I have going on I am not sure I can handle all that. So we'll see.

Almost Ready To Relax

I had a crazy November with Brian gone so much and us all taking turns being sick. Normally my tree and all the decorations are up the weekend after Thanksgiving. I just got my tree up today. It is beautiful though. One of my beautiful stocking hangers is broken! :( And I am not sure I can find another. It's pewter and I am crazy in that they MUST match. So I will go to Hobby Lobby this weekend and see what I can find. But the tree is up and I have to get the Happy Halloween vinyl sticker off my door! LOL. I can't find a razor. I have two little trees to put outside but I'll do that when it's less cold. Salem and Raina can decorate their pink trees tonight and I'll take pics tomorrow.

MOPS is over for the year too. I LOVE MOPS but I have had a hard year with shingles and illness and such that I was struggling the past month. I am so glad we have an assistant coordinator this year. I don't know what I would have done last year when I was doing my job, Joann's job and part of publicity (website/blog).

So what are we doing this year? Well believe it or not we scaled back on commitments and we're still booked SOLID. I have a girls night out with LaRae, Julia, Deanna, A'lisa on the 16th! WHOO HOO!!!!

Salem's school program is this Thursday, Saturday night they are going to an AMOM Parent's Night Out so Brian and I can go to a movie. I want to see Four Christmases. He wants to see something more action packed. I feel like I get to choose since I've been a single mom for 6 weeks! LOL.

Love and Care Ministries Christmas on the Streets is next week and next Wednesday is the Mission's King's Table. That's Brian's baby. We have health care professionals doing cholesterol and diabteic screenings, give flu shots, eye exams, back adjustments and hair cuts. We feed the guests and give out presents and give a gospel presentation that includes a 6 foot cake!!! :)

We still need used toys and donations to use for food if any one wants to help you can email me at leah @ abilenemops.com. And we could always use volunteers both serving and if you're a health care worker.

Then we have LaRae and her kiddos over on the 22nd for our traditional family dinner and present exchange. We will SO miss John this year.Then I am scheduling NOTHING the week of Christmas or the week after except a night at McM Elegante om New Year's Eve. The girl's don't know. Salem's been asking for weeks to go swimming at a hotel.

So all I have to do is finish these cards, wrap the gifts, finish sprucing up the house and help plan Salem's party at school! Thank God I have the last 2 weeks of December to relax.

Wednesday, December 3, 2008

Bebo Norman's New Song

Even if you're not a Brittney song - listen to this song! Then say a prayer for Brittney.

A Few Of My Favorite Shots From Family Pictures

Well it's that time of year - family pictures. It's almost the only time of year my photo is taken. I typically am behind the camera and truth be told I hate my picture being taken. But I am fairly pleased with these. I really do like my hair dark. This is really almost my natural color - I just highlight it so much. I hate how overweight I am but am not focusing on that! This time next year I should be at goal or close to it. I will look better and more importantly feel amazing!

I love that she had me take pics with Brian even though I groaned for a minute. We've never really done that aside from being married except at special events at MOPS.

Raina truly hated the tulle Christmas skirts that Rachel made. She kept trying to take them off. LOL. But she did keep her fingers out of her mouth and actually smile! Lindsey was shocked! She's taken her pics three times and that has SELDOM happened. And Salem was a pose queen!!! Anyway - here are a few of my faves. Thanks Lindsey!!!

Friday, November 28, 2008

5 Weeks & 2 Days...

I sent my deposit check 2 weeks ago for my weight loss surgery (WLS). We fly out of Abilene to San Diego on the 4th of January, have surgery on the 5th and return on the 8th.

It's almost surreal and so exciting and yet seems really not possible. Hmmm... I am very excited and have been doing research about what to eat on my post op diet and what foods most people have problems with etc.

My friend Heidi had the same surgery on February 1st and we just realized we were similar sizes and the same height. Our weight was within 5 pounds of each other. She's now at goal (in August). I can't fathom that I could be at goal in 6-8 months. She's 141 and in a size 6-8 but of course she wants plastic surgery to deal with the skin. I just can't think about that. If I have to live a few years in spanx I will. Cause we will be SO broke for a while after this. But it will be so worth. I am praying my cholesterol improves and I have a HUGE shot at it resolving my diabetes. That happens for a huge majority.

Anyway - I just wanted to post an update.

Monday, November 24, 2008

Ah Boring...

My life seems SO boring as of late. All I do is work, sleep, work, sleep oh yeah and mommy the girls. Brian is gone 12 hours a day with Christmas lights and I am lonely.

Korie drove all the way from Las Cruces on Friday - her first long drive since going to college. She looks fantastic. :) I miss the butt. LOL. She's decided she's not so fond of biology thus she's changing her major from Biology (was going to be a chiropractor) to Social Work.

Salem is a mess. Seriously - what is it with turning 6 that puts a child to the task of trying their dear sweet mom's patience? She is SO mouthy. I think she spends more time in timeout or losing her precious marbles (she has yet to fill her jar).

Raina is a doll baby. Very clingy still but so sweet these days. Her tantrums are shorter and shorter lived.

So...nothing major life is good - not perfect but good. I am tired and need to do a million things but they'll have to wait until tomorrow.

Tuesday, November 18, 2008

No More Braces Ma!

Salem was re-evaluated today. She is still intoeing a lot - mainly on the left and especially when she's tired. The therapist thinks her hip strength is better and is not convinced that the intoeing is coming from the hip but higher up on the foot thus making the braces ineffective. So she wants to take the braces off for 3 months and stop PT and see how she does on her own. I already know she's far more clumsy without them. So I am not sure. But we're willing. I don't want her to have to wear them if they don't help. Skills wise, the therapist said Salem is age appropriate except in risk planning/assessment - like swinging and suddenly letting go rather than slowing down to get off. She lets go and falls off (has happened several times at home and at PT). But she thinks that is inattention rather than an actual skills problem.

So we'll see in February! We'll keep up with the horse back riding therapy and gymnastics to keep her active and I'll ask her PE teacher and horse back riding instructor to watch for any obvious problems now that she won't have braces. At horse back riding she wears boots rather than braces anyway and they give her huge support, but I want to know if there is a problem with the lack of them overall.

Keep her in prayers. Salem is VERY excited about not wearing them! :)

Thursday, November 13, 2008

Can I Whine About My Day?

  • It started early when Brian woke me up at 6:30 (my alarm goes off at 6:45) cause he couldn't get his new phone to sync and his ride was scheduled to be here at 7 to pick him up for his trip out of town.
  • Then I only got 2 hours of work in today and I needed 3. That means I have 5 hours to make up in 2 days - 1 1/2 really as Sat we can only work til 12:30. And tomorrow I can't get much done cause Salem has her Jump Rope A Thon and a Pep Rally and mid morning I have a MOPS thing.
  • Then I waited at the police department for 45 minutes with two VERY cranky kids while they searched for an accident report.
  • Then after I immediately got in the car the insurance company called as they had already received a claim. It's our commercial policy. They had a fender bender last Sat. Pete was driving. It was his fault - this lady had a blinker on and was stopped so he thought that meant she was turning - she wasn't and went ahead and hit him.
  • So this lady calls and we find out that Pete is not on our commercial policy! I know I told them because I specifically had to have Brian wait for him to drive until he was 21 in October 07. The lady gracious said they would cover the incident but we could expect a rise in premium due to the accident and adding Pete. Sigh.
  • Then I get home and have 5 Christmas light bids to return - YEAH Money! Yuck trying to work around a 6 year old an a three year old without someone to run interference.
  • Oh and we had to file a claim (the 1st ever) on our general liability cause in early October a day laborer we hired when one of our workers dad had a stroke and the other - a single dad - was out with sick kids - anyway - he hit a suburban with a mower and caused $800 worth of damage. So I had to send a check for the deductible today! He actually hit a vehicle with a mower. Sigh!
  • Then the dishwasher repairman and drywall repairman got here at the same time and Raina walked in the room naked!I am tired
ACKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK. Oh vent over! Sorry! I am just seriously stressing and trying to keep money IN my bank account and it keeps coming out.

The good news is I did spend $20 and get a new rug, 2 books and some playstuff for the girl's kitchen at Julia's preview to her garage sale tomorrow.

The Noonan Shirts Are Ready!!!

I am proud to announce the Noonan Syndrome T-Shirt is Officially Available. Take a look at the shirt that you all helped to design. http://www.fivehumans.com/noonansyndrome

I think it's beautiful!!! And eye-catching enough to spark conversation and is stylish and fashionable so anyone would be proud to wear it.

Aaron King | Third Human VP, Business Operations FiveHumans® write: "Now, this was definitely one of our more difficult designs which is why it took us such a long time. In going through all of the questionnaires, trying to figure out what the shirt should look like, no specific design or "phrase" or "statistic" seemed to embody what the shirt should be while still being stylish. So we looked at what we think is the most "powerful" thing about NS that we've ran into, which is the passion and the voices of the NS community. So we decided to take every one of the 5 words that were submitted to us in the questionnaires with an attractive design element and put a little bit of everyone who submitted a questionnaire into the shirt, so it is truly emblematic of all of you. Obviously, there were words that were repeated numerous times and the most positive, powerful ones we highlighted in a larger more bold text, with the largest of them all being, PROUD.

So, we hope you enjoy the design and realize that every single one of those words is what Noonan Syndrome means to someone, and it's something that we feel will get enough people to stop, look and ask, that the people within the community can spread awareness with their voices and their stories, with the shirt just being a tool for those affected to deliver their own message."

Please consider ordering a shirt. A portion of the proceeds will go the NS Support Group!

Wednesday, November 12, 2008

I almost lost my wallet today!

So I take my wallet with me to take Raina to LaRae's so I can get some work done. Raina was trying to put her little (doll) in Salem's car seat so I had to climb in and help her. I get out and get in the front and drive to LaRae's - less than 5 min away.

I left my wallet on the roof of my car. I normally always have my purse. I just was in a hurry.

So I leave LaRae's and go to the post office and then get in the car and go to get a drink and realize I don't have it and panic sets in and I remember putting it on the roof of my car. So I high tail it home and retrace my steps. I turn onto a MAJOR street just in time to see a lady get of her suburban to get the wallet. So she starts to take off and I start honking like mad and she sees me and stops. I get out of my car and actually hold up traffic! I told her my name and she looked in my wallet and kept looking at me so I think I scared her! I am SO glad I saw her pick it up. I was about to call and cancel my debit card and credit card.

Thank God. I hate that I do things like this lately! It's nuts.

Friday, November 7, 2008

More positive words...

I am sharing more positive words I saw on this blog. I encourage you all to remain hopeful and diligent and prayer.

Dare I say...This is the day for new things in America.

Some of us rejoice with the coming new and some of us fell asleep last night weeping for what that new may mean for this country. Either way, it is the reality. And I refuse for that reality to stifle my sense of possibility.

Now is the time for Christians to live the message of Christ. Maybe, more than ever before, we will be invited outside our comfort zones where living what we believe won't be easy. And dare I say, that may be the best thing that has happened to Christians in a very long time.

It's one thing to hold fast to traditional principles, but a completely different thing to act whole-heartedly upon them.

It's easy to say abortion is wrong, but hard to walk beside and support that woman who chooses life.

It's easy to think we should help the poor, but hard to write that check from our own bank accounts to do so.

It's easy to point out wrongs in other people, but hard to examine the many places we ourselves fall so short.

It's easy to point out problems, but hard to sacrifice our time to be part of the solution.

But, that's exactly what being a Christian is supposed to propel us to do. With grace and gentleness and humble spirits, we are to be more than a band of people labeled as conservatives. We are to actively be Christ's hands and feet in this world.

Jesus never called us to the comfortable life. He called us follow him through whatever life hands us.

Jesus never waited for the circumstances of the times to line up in his favor. He called us to follow him and be light in the darkness.

Jesus never bad mouthed the leaders of the day or demanded they change their policies. He called us to follow him and live out the truth through our right choices.

And in following Jesus, an air of excited expectancy will be breathed fresh in our souls.

In Obama's speech last night he said, "
As Lincoln said to a nation far more divided than ours, We are not enemies, but friends...though passion may have strained it must not break our bonds of affection."
Now is the time to be representatives of truth to all those around us. May we Christians be seen not as those who continue to strain against the unity of our country, but as followers of Jesus, those who help create it.

Now is the time... today is the day... to follow Jesus like never before.

Thursday, November 6, 2008

Remembering Patti

Several years ago I became involved with Chemo Angel. I was Patti's Angel. She had Stage 4 Breast Cancer and wasn't doing well. You can read more about Patti here. I was Patti's angel almost a year when all of the sudden I couldn't reach her. It was hard not to assume the worst. I kept sending cards and small presents hoping the worst was not true but since the Chemo Angel organization couldn't reach her or a contact person they had to remove her from the program.

Eventually I found out that Patti had passed away in April 2004. It was heartbreaking especially considering that she left two young children behind.

A few months later I found out that Patti's husband passed away unexpectedly in August just 4 months after Patti's death. My heart was broken for those kiddos. I made it my job to stay in contact with one of their grandmothers. We made sure to send a Christmas package that year.

I think of those kids often and remember to pray for them as well. It would be SO easy for me never to be a chemo angel again but my short relationship with Patti changed my life. It again reinforced the idea to live for today and to treasure each moment.

One of the terrific aspects of Chemo Angels is the wide range of options for volunteers. You can sign up as a Chemo- or Senior Angel, a Card Angel, or refer a friend to the program. To learn more click on the link of above. And say a prayer for Sarah and Zack today. It's been 4 1/2 years since their mother's death.

Support & Pray For Your President

First off all I have to come clean and admit I voted for Obama. I can already hear the signs and see the heads shaking. My reasons are long and I was conflicted for months literally going back and forth until a couple of days before the election trying to decide. I prayed about this intently and researched and prayed some more. I finally had to accept that some of my Christian family and friends would really be frustrated and feel even betrayed by my vote. And that did happen with a few friends and family members. Some felt this made me prochoice or less of a Christian. So then I decided not to talk about it. I was confident in my choice but really I dislike arguing about politics and religion. Really what's the purpose?

I know my decision was heart felt and whereas I don't think Obama was the perfect choice I thought he was the best choice in this election. The election is over so I won't go through my long list of whys.

But since Wed morning I have seen friends and family who are seriously mourning the loss of McCain as president and many are downright ugly about Obama. So I thought I'd share this. It was sent to me yesterday and I totally agree. Let's unite together and pray and support our new president. If Christians united together and prayed we could seriously change the world we live in.

And isn't that what people told non Bush supporters when Bush won? To pray and support your president even if you didn't vote for him so he would be enabled to be the best president he could be?

And if you're an Obama supporter we still need to pray that he can and will do all he said he would do. That he would prove himself worth of our support.

By J. Lee Grady - Editor of Charisma

Whether you are happy about this week's elections results or not, all Christians must unite in prayer for our new president. Please don't forsake this responsibility.

It’s over. We’ve reached the end of the longest, angriest and most nerve-wracking presidential campaign in American history. Finally the “I approved this message” ads have ceased. The endless robot phone calls have stopped ringing. The debates, and the annoying post-debate comments from “experts,” are history—until the next election cycle.

More than half the nation is celebrating today while others are mourning. We are a divided nation, split into unhappy fragments by abortion, gay marriage, global warming, a failed economy and an unpopular war. Those who voted for Barack Obama have claimed a historic victory; some on McCain’s side are already looking for scapegoats. Politics is politics.

But when I got up this morning, I turned all my attention to the fact that Jesus Christ is still on the throne. His government is what is most important. Regardless of who sits in the Oval Office, the Bible says “the nations are like a drop from a bucket” to God (Is. 40:15, NASB). That includes the United States. We may boast about being “the greatest nation on earth,” but He who sits in heaven has a different perspective. Let’s take a big sigh of relief now and remember that God is sovereign.

I’ll admit this election did not turn out as I had hoped. I supported McCain primarily because I am pro-life and I prefer his small-government mindset. But now that the election is over, I’m not going to harbor bitterness toward Obama supporters or go into attack mode. Obama has been elected president of this country, and that means I have a biblical responsibility to support him in prayer—even if I challenge his policies.

Whether you voted for Obama or not, you need to pray for him. Here are 10 ways I plan to intercede for him regularly:

1. Pray for Obama’s protection.
We already know that some weird, neo-Nazi fanatics in Tennessee plotted to kill Sen. Obama during his campaign. Let’s pray that racist hatred is not allowed to spread. Let’s cancel every assassin’s bullet in the name of Jesus. May civility triumph over bigotry.

2. Cover his wife and daughters in prayer.
It is not easy to live under constant media scrutiny. Pray for Obama’s wife, Michelle, and their two daughters, Malia and Natasha, as they face invasive cameras, nosy reporters, maniacal fans and dangerous enemies. Obama is not only a politician but also a husband and a father.

3. Pray that Obama will govern with God’s wisdom.
God rewarded Solomon because he asked for wisdom instead of wealth, long life or vengeance on his enemies (see 1 Kings 3:11-12). Pray that Obama will order his priorities like that. Despite Solomon’s tragic character flaws, his legacy was wisdom. We can ask God to give our president the same grace.

4. Ask God to keep our president humble
. Many great American leaders became corrupt after they moved to Washington. The fatal attraction of fame, wealth and power proved irresistible. The only thing that will guard a man or woman from this pitfall is humility. May God deliver President Obama from the curse of pride.

5. Pray for wise and righteous advisers to surround him.
Godly leaders cannot do their job alone. Even the best leaders have failed because they trusted the wrong people. Pray that Obama will not select his counselors based on party, race, pedigree or political cronyism but on godly character and proven wisdom. Pray also that he will not allow secret traitors into his inner circle.

6. Ask for the spirit of reconciliation.
Some segments of our deeply divided society want nothing to do with Obama now that he has won the presidency. Even some Christians will be tempted to harbor resentment and nurse political grudges throughout his term in office. Pray that God will grant forgiveness and healing so that leaders on all political levels can have constructive dialogue.

7. Pray that Obama will adopt pro-life convictions.
Many politicians have changed their views on key issues while in office. In the 1800s some leaders who favored slavery later denounced it. In the 1950s some who opposed racial integration later became champions of it. Even though Obama won approval from many voters because he sanctions abortion, God could
soften and change his heart.

8. Bind all evil forces assigned to manipulate our president.
The specter of Islamic terrorism looms over the United States, and dark forces are ready to infiltrate. Our only hope lies in prayer to the God who is able to expose and outwit the schemes of the wicked. This is truly a time for spiritual warfare, and intercessors must not come off the wall in this hour! Pray that no foreign government, terrorist organization or demonic principality will use Obama as a tool. We must stand strong against the spirit of antichrist that promotes dictatorship, persecution of Christians and hostility toward Israel.

9. Pray that Obama’s door will remain open to the church.
The loudest voices of secular culture—from Bill Maher in Hollywood to atheists in academia—would be happy if religion were removed from public life. Pray that Obama, who claims to have a personal faith in Jesus Christ, will unapologetically welcome Christian leaders into his company and seek their counsel. And pray that false religious leaders (who claim to know Christ but deny His power) will not have his ear.

10. Pray that our nation will enjoy God’s peace and blessing during the Obama administration.
The apostle Paul instructed early believers to pray for all in authority “so that we may lead a tranquil and quiet life in all godliness and dignity” (1 Tim. 2:2, NASB). God’s will is for America to experience peace and prosperity so that we can continue to export the gospel to the nations. This must happen whether a Democrat or a Republican is in the White House. As we cry out for God’s mercy on our wayward nation, pray that He will allow us to be a light to the world as we finance global missions, feed and heal the world’s poor and share Christ’s love at home and abroad.

Monday, November 3, 2008


I was tagged by Erin to do a "I prompt" list so here are my rambling thoughts.

  • I am glad Halloween is over. I just threw out the candy (gave it away actually.
  • I worry WAY too much.
  • I have: a fantastic life... I am working on being more content.
  • I dislike: doing laundry - especially putting it away. Which is why I am staying up late washing everything we own.
  • I miss: my Papa. I always will. And Angel and Brynna.
  • I fear: something happening to my kids or me dying and not being able to be their mom.
  • I feel: mentally worn out
  • I hear: Larrah laughing at Will and Grace
  • I smell: pinesol
  • I crave: sleep and a massage
  • I cry: often
  • I usually: never get my to do list done
  • I search: for meaning...I am also the research queen.
  • I wonder: what life will be like when I am old.
  • I regret: nothing really. Oh sure I've made a TON of mistakes but Jesus forgave me so I try hard to let it go.
  • I wish: I were more disciplined in a variety of areas
  • I love: Jesus, Brian and the girls, my family, scrapbooking, MOPS, CSI, Biggest Loser, Diet Coke (don't drink it but miss it), chocolate covered almonds, Third Day, Air 1 Radio, Gymboree clothes, my girls in hair bows, Lindsey Cotton Photos, my computer, my boards, my house, my life...
  • I care: a lot about most things and it wears me out. Sometimes you have to let go.
  • I always: pop my fingers and toes and arms
  • I worry: that I'll die without WLS before my time
  • I am not: a patient person. When I decide I want something I want it NOW.
  • I remember: fishing with my Papa. Man I miss him.
  • I believe: in God, and in Jesus and love and family. Now I need to believe in me.
  • I sing: fairly well. I can't listen to the radio and not sing.
  • I don't always: keep a clean house. Well it's clean but cluttered.
  • I write: seldom. I do type a lot!
  • I win: arguments. LOL. Seriously I am like a dog on a bone. I think people let me win to shut me up. Except Julia! :) She'll challenge me.
  • I lose: my mind a little each day.
  • I listen: music constantly. It warms my soul and mellows my thoughts.
  • I don't understand: why bad things happen to good people - like Stacy's baby dying today. It makes no !#!$#%!$ sense.
  • I can usually be found: at my computer with my girls playing beside me.
  • I need: to finish laundry!
  • I forget: too much! I never used to forget anything.
  • I am happy: I really am fairly happy. Even when dealing with all the crapola.

Saturday, November 1, 2008

So I've had an off week

It started the 24th when I lost my camera. CRAP!

It carried over into not feeling well, having a busy week with school with a field trip, party and pep rally.

Then a friend unexpectedly came in on Wed and leaves tomorrow. I am SO glad to see her but it was an adjustment.

I had to do billing.

I trained for my new part-time job at Smart Locating.

My house is a wreck

And my to do list is HUGE.

And Christmas Light season started so I'll be a single mom for the most part of November. BLECH!

The good news is I got a surgery date - January 5!

Thursday, October 23, 2008

Thank you GOD!!!

Amazingly my town seems to have a lot of people who do not understand what a red light is. They just run lights right and left. I see it EVERYDAY. I've learned to slow down and look both ways before going even if I have the green.

Well yesterday I pulled out of church and stopped at a red light. It turned green. The car facing me had it's blinker on as did I and we both hesitated. I kept thinking why is he waiting to go. For some reason I thought - "I have to be careful". About 3 seconds later Brian says what are you waiting on and I said I don't know and started to pull forward and Brian suddenly yelled STOP right as this GIGANTIC Expedition sped through a red light going at least 50. Seriously fast for this street which has a 35 mph limit. I would have gone if Brian hadn't yelled. My light had been green at least 10 seconds so it wasn't like she was running a fading yellow. The woman would have annihilated my little sebring potentially killing me and Salem (she was on my side).

I am SO mad. People need to watch what the hell they are doing. Thank you God for protecting us.

Monday, October 20, 2008

Living Wide Awake

Here are a few profound thoughts from what I have read in Erwin McManus - Wide Awake. Think about it. Get the book. It's SO worth it. You can read excerpts at the above link.

The future is waiting within you.

What would happen if all of us discovered our God-given dreams? To live our lives in such a way that everything we did – every choice, every act – was used to fulfill those dreams. If all of us began to live "wide awake," the world would never be the same

Very few are meant for a life of notoriety, yet all of us were meant for a life of significance. We should never confuse fame with greatness. The former is about what you do for yourself and the latter is about what you do for others. It is in this way that all of us have heroic lives to live. We are all called to serve the greater good.

When we live wide awake, the world begins to reflect the kind of place in which God intended us to live. After all he places us in paradise and expected us to take care of his creation - so much for a good start. Now we need to step up and reclaim what was lost. Jesus came to bring out the best in us. When this happens we should expect that everything else will change for the better.

There is a future that needs to be created and it is waiting for you and me to wake up and get out of bed. The alarm has sounded and it's time to shake off the slumber.

You know that little bit of sadness that greets you in the morning? Maybe it's there because you're not doing what you're supposed to be doing. You're not living the life you're supposed to be living. You're not dreaming wide awake. It's your soul searching for it's hero.

I may not know you personally but this I know about you without question - there is a hero within you waiting to be awakened.

It's time to live, to create, to imagine, to dream...Wide Awake

So I want to share something exciting and scary!

So Brian and I are going to do some things to totally change our lives. :) We're very excited and I hope you are as well! Please keep us in prayer and to be honest it's natural that some might have feels of apprehension for us. If you do just praying. This is just the story of what we're doing and we're constantly seeking God and His will but truly feel that God is behind this all.

It's going to be a risk but Brian has been miserable with our business. It's too stressful on us as a couple and way to hard on his back. He's wavered about getting an MBA, going back to school to become a chiropractor etc. But while Brian was in Brazil, God kinda gave him an epiphany. He's tired of being unhappy. And we've been reading some Erwin McManus stuff - Wide Awake - about following your dreams to do something great - not to live in mediocrity etc.

So Brian has decided he wants to go to flight school to get certified and eventually next summer be able to fly commercially. The he wants to get a plane and start a travel service for Missionaries - something like Mission Travel is what we're thinking. We'd start with just the 20 churches and 150+ people who fly to Sao Luiz to work with Marcelo each year. This would be a huge blessing to missionaries who fly 24+ hours for a 2 week trip there and back. It would literally add 2 days to their trip. For instance, Brian's dad goes and the plane trips are getting harder and harder but he wants to keep going. So in theory the next year we'd probably be broke but it should enable us to have financial freedom within a short amount of time - like 3 years.

And me...I was scared to talk to Brian about it but he's open to it. I am going to try and get money together to have Weight Loss Surgery in January. I am going to go with a procedure called a Vertical Sleeve Gastrectomy. I would be self pay and it's really expensive in the states. So with help from Obesityhelp.com I am looking at two reputable Dr.'s in Mexico. I have come to the sad reality that I just I can't do this on my own. I fluctuate these days between 225-235 and my cholesterol so high I feel like it's IMPERATIVE that I get this weight off. My diabetes is under control but that combined with high cholesterol and being overweight give me something called "Metabolic Syndrome" and puts me at a 20% risk of having a heart attack in 10 years. I am 40 - my girls are 6 and 3 so I have to get healthy. I have to.

So anyway - these are major areas for us. Basically it would change our ENTIRE life. And we have to come up with a lot of money in a short amount of time so we're going to tighten the belt and stop spending on anything extra completely.

Brian will be taking lessons starting in mid December. Forty hours will get him started and he can work towards getting checked out in the twin engines and bigger planes in January and February (maybe March) while it's slow. Then he'd do a lot of cross country flights while we did God's Care. We'd keep our lawn care business but when the flight service is off the ground, we'd hire another full time worker and not take many new customers and hire a payroll service to handle everything else. Of course that would eat into the profit but we wouldn't need to live on it then and we could use that for savings and such.

To be honest Brian and I've really been at odds lately and we finally realized while we were apart (me in Dallas 3 days and then him in Brazil 9) that we're both just unhappy - him doing what he hates and me with my body and self image.

And one of the futuristic perks is that with a plane we could help people who otherwise couldn't do missionary work to get down there more affordably. It would be a business but it would be God's business so we would always help people the same as we do with our lawn care business. For us - we could spend our summers there which we've talked several times before about spending 2-3 months a year there - we just assumed it would have to be winter due to the lawn care business. We could buy a decent house for less than $20,000 and a car and have a second home and let Brian minister while the girls and I worked in the church in the big city (we aren't going to the actual jungle - maybe just to the town of Primera Cruz - a town of 10K that they go to before they trek into the jungle).

So I wanted to share. As you can see this is a ton of info. It's funny cause we both texted each other on last Wednesday when he made it back to the states saying we needed to talk! Me about the weight loss surgery and him about flying. I know it seems weird and fast and all but we're like that. Once we make a decision we try to act on it soon cause we both are impatient and it wears on us.

Five Humans

Whoo Hoo!!! Look what I just read on the FiveHumans Blog:

I wanted to tell everyone about a very special community of people that truly embody what being an advocate is all about. The mothers, fathers and courageous children and adults living with Noonan syndrome are a strong group with a voice that can’t be ignored. They won the Next Cause vote by an overwhelming margin. Therefore, this month, FiveHumans will be creating a shirt for Noonan Syndrome awareness inspired by the stories, emotions and experiences shared with us by the NS community (the actual shirts will be available for pre-order when the design is complete and will ship a few weeks later). We have also partnered with the Noonan Syndrome Support Group to be the recipient of donations for the Noonan syndrome shirt. Stay tuned for more information as we will soon be announcing when the shirt will be available for pre-order.

How exciting is that? I am BEYOND excited. And if you've never heard of FiveHumans you need to know who they are! FiveHumans is a company with the self appointed task of curing ignorance around various causes through hip, fashionable clothing. Their clothing helps people become advocates because they spark conversation and spread awareness and Noonan Syndrome is a cause not well known. They always say - "Ignorance is a Curable Disease!" AMEN!

Friday, October 17, 2008

Remembering Angel & Brynna

October is Infant/Child Loss Awareness Month - so in honor of Angel and Brynna I thought I'd share their story. I know they are safe in heaven but I still miss them each and every day and it's been 6 years.

Brian and I tried for 4+ years to get pregnant. We finally did IVF and transferred 2 embryos. We were pregnant with twins. And a week later one of twins has split into identicals - we had triplets. It was overwhelming and exciting and about 11 weeks we lost one of the identicals. It was so sad but we had so much excitement regarding the other two that we put it out of our mind. At 22 weeks I went to an U/S and was excited to find out the sex of the babies. I had recently returned a rented doppler and finally felt so good about this pregnancy. But at this U/S we found out that one of the remaining twins had died. I was told that I was at risk if I didn't terminate the healthy pregnancy because of the deceased baby but I just couldn't. We had three and were left with 1 so I felt like she was destined to make it, So I was on bedrest for about 14 weeks. I had weekly appointments, U/S and non-stress tests. I developed polydramnios and basically my body seemed to think I was still pregnant with multiples. I then developed high blood pressure and was hospitalized at 34 weeks. I stayed in the hospital a week, went home a week and then came back and delivered Salem Ruth-Rhena. Her sisters are Brynna and Angel. Salem had a rough start and ended up being diagnosed with Noonan Syndrome and Hypertropic Cardiomyopathy. But she couldn't to grow and be healthy and is now a bright and healthy 6 year old without signs of the heart problem.

If you'd like to read more of their story click on this. I also posted a lot of my entire IVF journey and pregnancy and the problems Salem had after birth here.

Thursday, October 16, 2008

Their room now!

And this is the big girl's room for now. We redecorated in September 06. Salem is now 6 and Raina 3 and they share until they are old enough to be upstairs (one big attic converted into a HUGE room) without us. I am VERY excited about that room. There is room to decorate two separate bedroom areas and a play area and the bathroom.

The ugly but comfy orange chair is gone now replaced with a desk and daddy's homemade house bookshelf is still there but the TV out. That lasted like 2 months. And the wall decor is finished but I am too lazy to take new pics!

I also left the doors off. They were almost broken when we took them down and I always planned to hand curtains and keep procrastinating.

Raina's Bedding

Salem always slept in her crib for naps even though we coslept at nights. So I figured Raina would too! :) NOT. This gorgeous bedding was a DREAM and I LOVED it and she wouldn't sleep anywhere but my bed or in my sling for months and since I was nursing and needing the sleep we went with it.

This is one of the few times she slept there. Isn't it gorgeous?

A Walk Down Nursery Lane!!!

I happened across Kelly's Korner and saw a nursery tour and had to participate. I am long from the nursery stage but I SO enjoyed planning and decorating and reminiscing. :) Salem's room was all about lambs. I had collected them for years and a dear friend maybe the beautiful quilt(s). I have one put up in a memory box that had been made for Angel.

I'll be back for fun's sake to post Raina's bedding (that she NEVER once slept in) and their room now!


I struggled long and hard to have children. You can click on the top blog link to the left to read my story. My surviving triplet and IVF miracle is now 6 but I can so understand the turmoil and literal pain at waiting to be a mommy and the awful negatives...

Well today I stumbled across the My Haskell Triplet Blog! She has a friend who is raising money to do her 3rd IVF - Lianna.

Lianna also has a contest to help raise money to do IVF. Check out their blogs.

Wednesday, October 15, 2008

Brian's Coming Home Today!!!

He should have just landed in Dallas. His flight doesn't leave til 1 to Abilene. :) Isn't this a great picture of him?

I did get an email from Marcelo - the missionary Brian has worked with in Brazil for 7 years. He had exciting news about Brian - they are going to get him licensed to fly so he can fly missionary groups down there.

Long term this is excellent for the 20+ teams that go to Marcelo's area. It will save money and time. For Brian it's amazing. He was almost licensed about 15 years ago and wants nothing more than to fly again.

I do have a secret request (that I am not sharing on my blog yet) that I was going to talk to Brian about this week that's highly pricey so I hope between both are dreams we can manage it. Plus with about 20 teams benefiting from Brian being licensed - maybe they'll help. We can run the donations through the church and all.

Anyway - regardless I am just excited Brian is coming home.

Sunday, October 12, 2008

Yuck! Mice & Bugs

First off all let me say I have a fantastic house. I love it. Every once in a while I'll get the urge to build or get something "new" and then I realize I'd have to double my inexpensive house payment and reality sets in. But I have to fight discontent a lot. I have no idea why.

But my house is old and has little things wrong that drive me insane. Also we get mice. Sigh! I haven't seen one since Spring when Jessica (Salem's cat that died) killed it and brought it to me as a present. Oh Jessica.....

I feel the same way about bugs. We have our house sprayed quarterly for bugs and mice. I just can't deal with it. And because we spray quarterly if I see anything in those 3 months they come back and spray for free.

So back to the present - we were due to be resprayed in late September. I had been sick, was handling Salem's birthday party and then had MOPS Convention. Then Brian left for Brazil on Tuesday.

Wednesday I saw a waterbug. Nasty. I will kill them but I hate it and I went after it and it got away in my bedroom.

So now we've been sleeping on the couch with my bedroom door shut (yes as if that will keep the nasty creature inside). And yes sleeping on the couch. My 40 year old body hates it.

So fast forward to yesterday. I hear a rustling in the kitchen. I assume Troy or Lily are getting into something. I go look - they are asleep at the back door. I know what I am hearing at this point but I refuse to think about it. It can't be a mouse. It just can't.

I hear it again. In my foot cabinet. Not the one with the can goods but of course the one with the rice and such in boxes that those nasty creatures can eat through.

So I get brave and open the door. I see nothing. HUGE sigh of relief. I must be losing my mind.

I shut the cabinet and turn to walk away and I hear it again. A huge ball of dread builds in my belly. I turn back and open the cabinet again and there the mouse is. Tiny but ferocious - yes all mice are ferocious. It eeks and I scream and slam the door shut.

Salem comes running...mommy what is it? Nothing dear...mommy you screamed...nothing honey...is it a mouse?


How did the mice and bugs know I went 2 weeks past the day to spray to keep them away? It's like they're at some invisible barrier and the barrier instantly drops at 90 days and it's safe for them to cross. And I have 2 cats and they surely haven't keep the mouse away.

So yes Julia and Brenda Ann have fought more intense battles with rattle snakes (I would surely die) but I am now scared to go in my kitchen and clean and cook. What if that mouse eeks at me again?

I have to call American Allied on Monday! Brad to the rescue.

But for now we need to go get pizza. Even though I have an entire cabinet full of food. I just can't deal with it. What if it comes out? What if it bites me? What if I get rabies and die? What if the girls get bit?

Yes I know that's over the top but yeah it's the way I think.

Friday, October 10, 2008

Kreativ Blogger Award!

Thanks Erin for passing this on to me! :) Thanks!!! I really don't consider myself creative. I COPY a lot! :) But it gets the job done. But I find that motherhood has helped me become more creative as well as being a computer guru - well ex computer guru. I don't even know if I remember how to program anymore. But both are creative outsize of the scope of just "craftiness". I LOVE the idea of making beautiful crafts but they just don't interest me as much as scrapbooking, cards, MOPS & this blog.

The blog award rules:

1. List 6 things about yourself and
2. Pass this award on to 6 other bloggers

Okay, so 6 things about me:

1. Like Erin the spelling "Kreativ" drives me crazy! But that's because I am a secret baby names fanatic! I love playing baby name games on one of my favorite boards.
2. I pop my fingers and my toes and my arms and my neck...yes it drives people nuts.
3. I adore being a SAHM even when I am tired and stressed and have so much to do.
4. I am trying to be a vegetarian. It's healthier life style for me with diabetes and high cholesterol and honestly I read the Skinny Bitch book and it was awful about how meat and dairy are processed. I have bought organic dairy for ages now though.
5. I really like tofu! :) Especially in PF Chang's Hot & Sour Soup! Delish!
6. Brian is in Brazil on his 7th mission trip there since the summer I was pregnant with the trips. I miss him and always spend WAY too much money while he's gone. It's how I cope I guess! LOL.

Now to tag...I am fairly creative but don't always share it on my blog but some of these ladies do and some don't but either way I think they are AMAZINGLY creative and respect their creativity at crafts, scrapbooking, fun kid projects and parenting a lot.

Jana - Scrapbooker, Photographer and SO much more!!!

Christi - Graphic Designer Extraordinaire
Johnnie Kay - Have you seen her fall decorations?
LaRae - I LOVE her way with words and parenting ideas!
Shannon - I miss my scrapbooking buddy!
Julia - She has a way with words even if I don't always agree! :) But it does always make me think!

If I didn't tag you it doesn't mean that I don't think you're not creative. Promise! :)

10 Things I Learned At Convention

I was inspired to write this list after reading a similar list at "The View At 5'5". I wish I had met her at convention.

This years MOPS Convention was in Texas! :) WOOT!!! That's amazing cause it helped our entire steering team and one table leader go (11 total). When we fly it's harder to raise funds even though 7 went to Orlando last year and 6 to Nashville the year before. I LOVED Orlando. It was fun and refreshing. But to be honest God broke my heart at this convention. The speakers all said things that emphasized what God had been working in me for ages. The praise and worship and sessions...it all geared together to work on me. We had an amazing time in our two adjoining room with 10 people, shopping, going to general sessions and getting 16 seats (11 for us and 5 for Beltway MOPS. I can't wait til next year.
  1. God did not give me my children to make them more like Him. He gave me my children to make me more like Him. Said by Julie Barnhill. WOW.
  2. It's not hard to be a parent ... it's IMPOSSIBLE. So it's all up to me to let God work through me.
  3. SDWSCD - Read my other 2 posts about this a little further down. Am I doing ALL I can do?
  4. God is just sitting there waiting for him to give me the last of me. Why am I holding back?
  5. What fears are stopping me from attaining my dreams and doing something amazing for God? What dreams do I really want to accomplish in life?
  6. I shouldn't be focused on trying to create successful children but raising children to lead great lifes for God.
  7. What a wonderful team I am a part of at Highland MOPS. I love those ladies.
  8. My girls were given to me for a reason. God show me how to be the best mother to them.
  9. I am not Wonder Woman. I have to slow down and realize it's ok to say no. I usually do this well but sometimes I slip and when I do it really screws me up.
  10. God is calling me to do something WAY outside my comfort zone. I am trying to listen and do it. It's hard.
  11. I can't wait for Brian to come home from his Brazil Mission trip so we can work on a family vision and how to be a better why to my husband.
OK I came up with 11. :)

The Girls Are STILL Sick

Ack it's been a week. I am tired. Salem has missed school the entire week. She has had a fever off and on all week and thrown up all night Tuesday and Wednesday and Raina the fever. Of course they are fine when I take them to the Dr. Of course.

They are better now but had fever all night so a sweet friend is coming over to stay with them so I can go get some blood work done and run a few errands.

I haven't accomplished ANYTHING this week. I was going to paint and organize my bedroom and make it a love nest. :) Seriously! That obviously won't happen before Brian gets home. LOL.

I was going to clean my house from top to bottom! ROFL!!! That didn't happen either. I am SO tired. Wish me luck this weekend. If I get sick too it will be a lost cause.

Wednesday, October 8, 2008

Girl Scout Patch Fiasco

Did I mention last Monday that I was in SUCH a hurry to get Salem's daisy tunic (I had forgotten) that I didn't make it to the Girl Scout store until 1:45. I had to pick up Salem at 2:45 and get her to Daisys 15 minutes away.

So I get the patches and run home and heat my iron and lay the vest down on my carpet. Yes - that was a big mistake - but the biggest was not putting a towel underneath it.

So I lay it down - it's the vest - we had wanted a tunic but they didn't have her size and it was thinner and more a polyester blend. So I started ironing on the flag and when I tried to move the vest it was stuck to my carpet and I had to PULL it up.

So the vest had a HUGE iron spot on the back (thank goodness the back cause we had investiture) and my carpet has a spot.

ACK! So of course I stopped ironing and cried.

Then the troop leader saw it and just happened to have an extra tunic she picked up at Good Will for $5. Whoo Hoo! Then I had to buy another flag patch.

Now I have to iron it all on by Monday and am terrified.

I need to buy an ironing board. Can you tell I seldom iron?

A Stroll Down Memory Lane

Julia's post today made me start thinking about the past when I was the most happiest and the most unhappy. Here is a picture of me in high school - yes amazingly skinny huh? I look happy right?

But that was probably one of the most miserable times in my life. Well it got much worse in my early 20's but it was directly related to my life as a teenager and to be honest just because I WAS so screwed up.

These days I am tired and fat and have problems galore - but I am happy. It's amazing to see the difference. I think the public as a whole would assume I was happier in the first pic. Isn't it amazing how to world equates happiness on the first visual.

Now don't get me wrong - I hate being overweight. HATE it. I am struggling with losing weight and exercising...I want to be fit and healthy. I want it with all of my heart. But I wouldn't go back to 16 with that 16 year old body for the world. No way in heck would I do that ever.

So why do I post this? I have no clue...I just remember looking SO good in this pic and remembering how screwed up and looking for love and attention I really was.

It makes me want to lock my kids in the closet during the teenage years as well.

Tuesday, October 7, 2008

Highland MOPS Steering Team At Convention

I LOVE this team! This is the entire Highland MOPS Steering Team and one of our table leaders. What an AMAZING time we had at convention.

And I have to add this picture of the urinal! LOL. Only at a hotel with over 4000 women in attendance would they so beautifully convert a men's room to a ladies room.


By Mariane Holbrook

I may not win a trophy for the "Mother Of The Year;"
I'll likely not rush out on stage and smile as people cheer.
My name will not be three feet tall on Broadway's Grande Marquis
With brilliant neon lights that flash for all the world to see.

No president will phone my house and call me by my name;
I won't be listed in "Who's Who" for newly-won acclaim.
No one will stand in line to have me autograph a book,
No tour guides will drive past my house so folks can gawk and look.

But there is something that I hope above all else on earth.
I've felt this way, I'm sure, right from the moment of my birth.
When my time comes to slip away and leave this world for good,
I hope I hear my family say, "She did what she could do."

I changed that last line from she did the best she could do to she did what she could do. But it fit perfectly with what I am dealing with in my spiritual life right now.

While at MOPS Convention one of the messages that tugged at my heart enough was when Elisa Morgan spoke about - She Did What She Could Do.

In Mark 14:8 the International Standard Version says: She has done what she could. She poured perfume on my body in preparation for my burial. It is the story of Mary anointing Jesus with the expensive perfume and how Judas and others criticized her and how she gave what she had. She couldn't do anything more. She did what she could do.

What are we doing? Are we doing all we can do? I might never be an acclaimed speaker or renowned activist or Christian leadership guru (all of my favorite passions to be honest), but am I doing all I can do? All God wants me to do? I have to say no.

I am sometimes quite selfish in telling God no. And God knows that and made sure I was at convention this year to hear this message. I don't know if God was using Elisa Morgan to speak to anyone else but he spoke to me.

Ignore his voice...
Sorry did you say something? (by the way this NEVER works with God).
Well I think I'll pass this time.
No you won't.
Yes I will.
NO NEVER EVER I will NOT do this...
Yes Leah...
Yes Leah...
I can almost hear God laugh at this point.

As a mom I have often hidden a giggle at one of my daughter's indignation at finally doing what I am telling her to do.

But why does it have to be so difficult? Why must I do this? For some reason it's what I am called to do.

And I wanted to be remembered this way - she did what she could do. So the Lord knows I am going to do it. I am not sure how yet - that will come but I will.

Leah Holamon
Wife - Mother - Daughter - Sister - Friend
She Did What She Could Do

Go Fish Guys New CD - Party Like A Preschooler

The latest album by the Go Fish Guys focuses on their younger audience! Party Like A Preschooler takes songs like Do Your Ears Hang Low, 5 Little Monkeys, and Pop Goes the Weasel and makes them...well, not annoying! Click on the link to hear sample clips.

The Go Fish Guys are continuing their mission of making great music for kids that won’t drive parents bonkers, this album breaks new ground in the world of toddler tunes!

Party Like A Preschooler contains 11 brand new tracks along with 2 bonus tracks from their SNAZZY CD. Sure to be a fan favorite is the new “DAD” track titled It’s Hard To Be Cool (In A Mini-Van)!

Kids music can be cool and the Go Fish Guys prove it once again. Load up the mini-van because it’s time to Party Like A Preschooler!

Note from Leah: Speaking from experience the Go Fish Guys are AMAZING. The music is fun and exciting and kids and parents alike love it. You can order online or find copies in many Christian bookstores. Snazzy is my favorite but Party Like a Preschooler is fun! My 6 year old kindergartner LOVES it.

Monday, October 6, 2008


Well last week was crazy anyway! :) I had SO much to get done before leaving for convention. Raina ended up staying with a friend named Victoria on Thursday afternoon after we realized Brian couldn't take off cause one of our employees father had a stroke and was out of town. The other guy can't drive the work truck. MAJOR issue as ALL my girlfriends were going to MOPS Convention except LaRae who was going to get John and Julia who was watching her on Friday. It worked out that but was stressful.

We all got on the van and headed off to convention! Everyone gets something different from convention. It's amazing how God does that. I was a ball bag all weekend. That is not typical but God is kind of not so subtly making me face some issues and be true to myself - even the ugliness - and I am SO not liking it. God told me to do something this weekend. I told God NO - he said yes - I said no not ever EVER - he said yes...grrrrr...It sounds comical but it's quite painful and I am SO not ready...

So we're home and Brian leaves for Brazil tomorrow, my house is a wreck (my own fault) and I have a ton to do but I do want to leave you with this:

SDWSCD - it's something we "learned" at convention! Be brave and let me know what you think it means in a comment and then I'll come back tomorrow and post convention pics and enlighten you! :)

I am going to a movie tomorrow. And moving Larrah home this weekend. :) So it is a busy week!

14 Biblical Virtues to Pray for your Kids

Someone sent this to me so I thought I'd add it to my prayers and share it.

Salvation - Lord, let salvation spring up within my children, that they may obtain salvation that is in Christ Jesus, with eternal glory. (Is. 45:8, 2 Tim. 2:10)

Growth in Grace - I pray that my children may grow in the grace and knowledge of our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ. (2 Peter 3:18)

Love - Grant, Lord, that my children may learn to live a life of love, through the Spirit who dwells in them. (Gal. 5:25, Eph. 5:2)

Honesty and Integrity - May integrity and honesty be their virtue and protection. (Ps. 25:21)

Self-Control - Father, help my children not to be like many others around them, but let them be alert and self-controlled in all they do. (I Thess. 5:6)

Love for God's Word - May my children grow to find Your Word more precious than much pure gold and sweeter than honey from the comb. (Ps.19:10)

Passion for God - Lord, please instill in my children a soul that followeth hard after thee. (Ps. 63:8, KJV), that they cling to you passionately.

Mercy - May my children always be merciful, just as their Father is merciful. (Luke 6:36)

Respect - For self, others, authority - Father, grant that my children may show proper respect to every-one, as Your Word commands. (I Peter 2:17)

Faithfulness - Let love and faithfulness never leave my children, but bind these twin virtues around their necks and write them on the tablet of their hearts. (Prov. 3:3)

Purity - Create in them a pure heart, O God, and let that purity of heart be shown in their actions. (Ps. 51:10)

Gratitude - Help my children to live lives that are always overflowing with thankfulness and always giving thanks to God the Father for everything, in the name of our Lord Jesus Christ. (Eph. 5:20, Col. 2:7)

Humility - God, please cultivate in my children the ability to show true humility toward all. (Titus 3:2)

Hope - May the God of hope grant that my children may overflow with hope and hopefulness by the power of the Holy Spirit. (Romans 15:13)

Wednesday, October 1, 2008

Happy 6th Birthday Salem!!! :)

I simply can't believe she's 6. Happy Birthday Salem Ruth-Rhena!!! My sweet baby!!!! Brynna and Angel - we'll miss you forever and see you in heaven one day.

At birth in the NICU.


One year - look at those curls!!!


And the curls EXPLODE. :)


Growing UP!

No more curls...


Mommy was SO sad you turned 5!


Growing up so beautiful!


Saturday, September 27, 2008

Salem's 6th Birthday Party Was A BLAST!!!

WOW! First of all everyone we invited but 1 person came. That I wasn't expecting. So I had 15 kids there with siblings. I have a niece that is a Bold Gold Squad Leader and her sister is in Bold Gold so they and friends from school came to teach the girls cheers. It was SO cute. They had a contest - I've got spirit yes I do - yelling match. I wish I had it on video.

Then the girls did these little stunts with the kids. These pictures show Salem!!! They all did it but 1 several times. 2 were scared and didn't do it til right before they left.

We had 4 boys here and I set up an area to play football with an inflatable football goal and the idea was the girls would cheer but they wouldn't play so they played on the play set. And all the parents stayed but two so that made it really nice. I really got to visit with some moms of the girls in Salem's K class. I hope we can do more together.

Brian made the cake - the girls got pom poms and megaphones from Oriental Trading that were fabulously inexpensive and the boys got footballs and candy. We decorated with balloons, confetti, football plates for the boys, cheer plates for the girls and drank juice bags and water and provided salsa, chips, cheese, crackers and fruit. Seriously I think I spent less on this party than ANY and it was AMAZING.

And this was seriously the best party ever. All of Salem's friends who have been to her last 4 say it was the most interactive fun and really it was very inexpensive. So if you know cheerleaders - do this!!!

I was SO proud of Salem. She was SO polite opening presents and thanked all her friends personally. Raina was fairly antisocial and hid most of the party! Bizarre. She's suddenly into this hiding stage and Salem never did that so I just let her hide.

Whitney you're right - they are big productions these days! But this party was the easiest and MOST fun ever!!! I can't believe it.

Catching up on pics

I am seriously behind posting pics so please bear with me! :) I have to get caught up before birthday party, MOPS convention and Halloween festivities. :)

So of course the girls are LOVING spending time with the new kittens Lily and Troy! :)

Salem's cheerleader buddy Kelsey won homecoming queen! Salem was SO excited.

Salem and Raina enjoyed the lake with friends in late August.

And of course don't they look adorable in their cheerleading uniforms? Yep I had to get Raina one. It's cute. They were pricey but really my girls don't grow quickly so Salem's will fit her at least 2 years and the same for Raina and then Raina can wear Salem's. Perfect.

Well I can't believe I am up this late. Wish me luck tomorrow. It took me forever to clean the house today. I just seriously can't work more than 5-10 minutes at a time without growing so tired. My house is clean but of course with a husband, a 3 year old, an almost 6 year old and 2 cats - well I'll have to pick up again. But at least the "big" stuff is done.