I was crying and being all stressed. This special needs mom stuff is SO overwhelming. I second guess myself daily almost every minute and here I am looking looking at Raina having special needs to. I LOVE LOVE LOVE my girls and I don't want them to be different but sometimes I feel like God really made me a mistake choosing me for this.
So my therapist told me this story of a missionary 50 years ago who was rowing to a remote island with some Tongan people (that is the Island they were going to - I might have the spelling wrong). They were trying to sail and one person was praying for a tail wind and one was praying for a head wind and one wondered if they should just pray for wind. They weren't getting anywhere.
So one of the Tongan's got out and got a row boat and told them to get in and started rowing and he said "I'll be your wind".
Ty (the therapist) said he wondered if I was the girl's wind...
At that moment I was like "what?" But the more I think about it the precious that thought is to me.
I am their wind. I can do this.
13 years ago
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That's a beautiful analogy.
You are their wind, Leah. And you are doing an amazing job!
I don't know you very well but it is easy to tell that you are a very strong woman. I only hope to be the mother that I know you are! Through Him you can do anything.
You can definitely do it. God doesn't give us more than we can handle. He knows you can do it. ::hugs::
Leah, you are their wind. You are such an awesome mommy to Salem and Raina. You have been a blessing to me over the years too. You are so kind and loving. I think it is an honor Jesus chose you. He chose you because he knew you could handle whatever their needs are. What an awesome thought - he CHOSE YOU! And you are going a wonderful job. Love ya!
First, I believe you are an awesome mommy! Your girls are so blessed by you!
Second, it was SOOO good to see you at lunch today! You look AMAZING! I am inspired by you Leah!!
God did know what he was doing when he blessed us with our kids, we may have no clue why some days but one day we will. So for now we have to take it day by day. Some days falling apart from more pain than we ever thought possible, some days picking up the pieces from the day before and some days having more srength and determination than we ever thought possible. I loved the wind analogy. I have often thought of myself as Aziah's wings, only to find out sometimes he's mine! You just do what you can do and take it all as it comes and that is all you can ever do. God will see you through.
Definitely a good analogy. Be a strong wind, Leah. I know you can!
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